My Beloved,

“Hope deferred maketh the heart sick:”

Proverbs 13: 12a

Waiting is one of the most challenging things I will ask you to do. It is right on par with “trust me.” I realize that waiting carries a weight to it and sometimes that weight zaps your strength. But Beloved, I would not introduce a wait that I could not restore you from.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
³¹ but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:30-31

Beloved, I hear your heart and see your pain. I hear every question of when, why, how long, and is it time yet. I hear you, but now, I need you to hear me.

There is something I am trying to build in you and it takes time. I am trying to build patience.

^“2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;

³ Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

⁴ But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.”

James 1:2-4

^“3 His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. ⁴ Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

⁵ For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; ⁶ and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; ⁷ and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. ⁸ For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.”

2 Peter 1:3-8

Beloved, I need you to look like and respond like me in this evil world. I need you to be on mission about my mission. I need to wring out the desires in your heart that do not match Mine, or that have grown so large as to overshadow the desire you were created to be fulfilled by, and that is me.

Beloved, if I did heal now, deliver now, present the job opportunity now, present you to the husband now, allow the baby to form now, or did whatever your “it” was now, ask yourself, “Would the Giver of the gift still have the throne of my heart if I got the gift now?” One thing that the weight of wait encourages is humility and gratitude. They are the muscles you build when you wait on Me and trust me. And patience? Patience is like the heart. If your patience is strong, humility and gratitude can lift any weight that I ask you to wait for. Beloved, I see you and do not forget your effort.

God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.

Hebrews 6:10

Bless others while your wait! Sing praise to Me as you wait! Learn of Me while you wait! And one day Beloved, the transfer of My desires for you into your heart will be so full and complete, that you will begin to help others bear the weight of wait and then the weight will not seem so bad. You will be working your wait so well, that when the Reward, meets you, you will be whole, complete, and lacking nothing.

Remain Beloved! I am helping you lift the weight of wait!

“but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.”

Proverbs 13:12b

Love, Abba Father